Eyes Wide Open, then shut, then open again.
It's been a long time since I have written in my blog. Not much has happened that I would care to put here, rather talk to people about. I have moved away from everyone I know and my family along with me...more on that later.
I want to confess something. I recently traveled to Kentucky for work. It was in a beautiful part of the state, in or very near coal mining country. I arrived at night and could only see the snow covered mountains and trees only guessing how scenic the area would be in daylight...it would be another 2 days before I saw anything in daylight. I was on-site much longer than I should have been and this is where things turned negative for me. After training for 11 hours that next day I was quite tired, not physically, but mentally and not feeling very cheery or friendly. As a result I became very negative and thought quite lowly of the people I encountered and training at the hospital.
This is a simple town with simple people leading simple lives. Secluded from the rest of this crazy, fast-paced and complex world. Throughout the day I saw and met people that seemed not so advanced in thought as they ought to be...I thought. I know, I have some work to do in the humility department. After work I could hear myself saying and thinking things about these folks that surprised me, but I felt justified. I was wrong and I hope it didn't show.
After dinner I regained my energy and a healthier perspective and was hit with reality and humility...thankfully. I realized how utterly right these people are in their ways. As I reflected on this crazy day I recalled several hospital workers and remember thinking to myself, "are you mentally capable of doing this job?", I re-thought, how rude and wrong of me to judge at all. All of these people are doing the best they can, and fortunately there's someone who sees that in them and apprecaites their hard work. I was wrong and framing that situation the way I just did here, is still no more correct or kind of me. There's still some work to be done.
So, as I was driving in to this town my eyes were wide open, then "dealing" with the people I shut my eyes them erected a wall around my own insecurities. Luckily before I left I opened my eyes again and thanked these people for contribution to the world we live in. These are the people that vote, work, and keep the important things in life important. I can't stand John Cougar Mellencamp's music, but "this is America".
I want to confess something. I recently traveled to Kentucky for work. It was in a beautiful part of the state, in or very near coal mining country. I arrived at night and could only see the snow covered mountains and trees only guessing how scenic the area would be in daylight...it would be another 2 days before I saw anything in daylight. I was on-site much longer than I should have been and this is where things turned negative for me. After training for 11 hours that next day I was quite tired, not physically, but mentally and not feeling very cheery or friendly. As a result I became very negative and thought quite lowly of the people I encountered and training at the hospital.
This is a simple town with simple people leading simple lives. Secluded from the rest of this crazy, fast-paced and complex world. Throughout the day I saw and met people that seemed not so advanced in thought as they ought to be...I thought. I know, I have some work to do in the humility department. After work I could hear myself saying and thinking things about these folks that surprised me, but I felt justified. I was wrong and I hope it didn't show.
After dinner I regained my energy and a healthier perspective and was hit with reality and humility...thankfully. I realized how utterly right these people are in their ways. As I reflected on this crazy day I recalled several hospital workers and remember thinking to myself, "are you mentally capable of doing this job?", I re-thought, how rude and wrong of me to judge at all. All of these people are doing the best they can, and fortunately there's someone who sees that in them and apprecaites their hard work. I was wrong and framing that situation the way I just did here, is still no more correct or kind of me. There's still some work to be done.
So, as I was driving in to this town my eyes were wide open, then "dealing" with the people I shut my eyes them erected a wall around my own insecurities. Luckily before I left I opened my eyes again and thanked these people for contribution to the world we live in. These are the people that vote, work, and keep the important things in life important. I can't stand John Cougar Mellencamp's music, but "this is America".
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